Impossible Heights.

 Last night, I couldn't sleep.

Again.

Like always.

So I crept up my husband's side of the bed and held him tight.

Usually he'd be awake by 5 am, and it was about time he woke up.

He always knew when I just needed a hug, he held me back.

My husband has been helping me out so much emotionally, when I feel stuck with my life. It's weird how I feel so thankful to be living with him, but in the same time I'm struggling in a way that he isn't. 

Aku tak faham otak aku ni, kenapa complicated sangat. Suami cakap hidup ni tak complicated pun. Aku senyum je masa dia cakap macam tu. Kalau hidup ni tak complicated, kenapa aku sendiri tak tau kenapa aku susah sangat nak tidur? It happens always on a random day, yang kadang2 aku penat gila dah. Penat tau tak...

He texted me when he's at work, asking why couldn't I sleep last night. I said I blamed the tea we had when we're out for late dinner. Then he laughed. See? Even he's getting tired of my antics, cos he had that tea more than me and he slept just fine. Haish... 

All these sleepless nights is making me sick, sick in a way I'll be done with life when morning comes, you get what I mean? My husband knows too well he doesn't have to say anything when he wakes up in the morning and seeing me all wide awake, he just offers his arms to me.

In a better world, things should've been better for me, for us.

❤️‍🩹