Time is Aging.

Nothing is ever for sure. 

What’s keeping me awake tonight?

Enough what-ifs to keep me awake tonight.

I’m getting older, the clock is ticking.

What if we do?

What if we don’t?

What if we plan?

What if we don’t - then we regret it in our older days?

Susah ya, decisions.

This one is a big one.

Presence. Be present.

#np Mr Jagger - Kid Cudi

2026.

Bila tahun meningkat, kena faham maksud yang sebenarnya adalah jangka hayat pun makin singkat. Nak kena maintain sihat, maintain sharp mentally and physically, and maintain all the good relations in life supaya dapat hidup dengan tenang.

Tahun ni, aku kena refine lebih hubungan yang sedia ada. Sebab tahun lepas adalah tahun yang aku hanya mampu fokus anak-anak. Setiap fasa hidup ni ada susah senangnya, jadi tahun lepas adalah level “difficult” untuk aku. Walaupun diakhiri dengan result “exceed standard”, aku tau tahun ni akan ada lagi adventure yang akan mendatang. Mungkin dah kena tukar doa bukan mengharap “more adventures”, tapi lebih kepada “more peace and serenity in the journey”. 🤣

Dengan Januari yang hampir berakhir, aku nak luah sikit je.

Penatnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Penat betul ya Allah bila anak start sekolah.

Nak siapkan anak, nak jemput hantar sekolah, nak siap makan pagi petang malam tu.

Penatnya ya Allah. 😅

Penat yang teramat sangat yang amat penat.

Penatttttttttt.

Tak masuk lagi bab kerja, ya Allah penatttttttttttt.

Sampai aku dah amp up all my supplements to help with the tiredness. Penat sebab otak ni, the moment I wake up - it’s go time until midnight. Ya Allah, kuatkanlah tubuh badan aku ni ya. Aku tak boleh sakit, anak-anak perlukan aku dalam fasa tengah nak membesar.

Masa kecik sedap hidup bawah ketiak mak abah, dah besar ni sedap jugak duduk bawah ketiak suami tapi kena fokus bahagian lain dalam hidup jugak supaya tak rasa menyesal di kemudian hari.

Marilah kuatkan semangat, Nina.

Selagi masih bernafas. 💪

#np Solo Ride - Alexi Blue

Gaining Perspectives.

 I don’t have that many friends in my life but the ones I do have, I will usually stick to them for years like they are to me. Why? Mostly because they trust me enough to confide in me, as I am to them. I’m gonna straight up brag that I am a good secret keeper, mainly because I now have mum brain syndrome so whatever you told me 5 years ago, I’m pretty sure that secret is long gone from my memory. 🤪🤣

My husband let me have a girls’ outing today with my girlfriend. Out of the blue, she said I look prettier and happier. And honestly I think I do kah kah kah. All credits due to my husband later hahaha. 😉 

Also… I discovered that a friend of a friend to me in college is now a boyfriend to my girlfriend in college. He got divorced, she just broke up with her boyfriend. They got together after almost 10 years of us leaving college.

What a small world, we kept repeating that to ourselves tonight. A very much needed interesting story for me to share with my husband during our pillow talk session.

Case in point, never leave anything on bad terms. You’ll end up regretting it or you’ll be reminded of it for years to come.

Come to think of it - do I have any regrets for any friendship or relationship that I no longer have? Seems like those don’t matter to me anymore. People left me, it used to take a toll on me. But now? I learned that those departures left me with the best things that I could ever ask God for.

For me - when something ends, it ends for good. There’s no need to feel heavy by what happened, rather find what’s the lesson for us to bring forward. I used to be bitter then, but honestly now I couldn’t care less. God have given me so much to appreciate today than whatever I used to have. So why should I be lamenting on my past?

Points to ponder, Nina. 🥸

I Miss You.

Ever since I got married, I let myself go and trust my husband enough to rely on him for love, for guidance and for strength.

Just when I needed him, he’s away for work.

Baru sedar yang aku dah terlalu selesa ada suami nak mintak nasihat untuk semua benda.

I hate feeling inadequate, but in the same time dependency is one of the privileges I should be thankful for when I’m already married.

Haish….

Satu Titik.

 Salah satu perkara yang suami sentiasa ingatkan,

Jaga maruah dan nama baik dia.

Lepas tu dia pergi kentut masa keluar di tempat awam.

Siapa yang tak jaga maruah ni?

I cannot. 😌

Giving My Heart A Break.

 Now I know for sure.

I am not to be trusted with my feelings.

When I love, I love for real.

Although at times, it never seem that way.

Lost in translation.

Titik tertinggi mencintai adalah mengikhlaskannya pergi.

#np Love In The Dark - Adele

White Blood.

Have you ever thought that one day,

You'll walk out of this life unknowingly?

An average life span is 72 years. I'm living almost half of that already.

Semoga kita semua mendapat kesudahan yang baik dan meninggal dalam khusnul khatimah.

Ameen. ❤️